Cats and X-rays

Three days in and he was bored out of his skull. Appropriate enough, he thought, as I’m surrounded by them. He didn’t just mean those on the necks of his colleagues; but the images of thousands of x-rays and cat scans in the filing room that he was now working in, a windowless department of a big city hospital.
Skulls, tibia, fibula, ulna, radius. He could picture little girls reciting the words in some playground skipping game: Skulls, tibia, fibula ulna, radius, phalanges, vertebra, patella. Tibia, from the word for flute because they used to use them to play on. That’s some good recycling, he thought, picturing now a couple of honeys tootling out a tune on his leg bones after his death. Maybe before, he mused, if, say, he was in a terrible accident and lost his lower legs, which were immediately rendered down and sent off to the flute factory. Could happen. He didn’t mind the bone; but the thought of pictures of soft tissues made him feel a bit off. The term, too, ‘soft tissues’, like there was something clean and hard about the bone stuff and something ineradicably gelatinous and disgusting about the other.
He was soon filing in his sleep. He asked his manager if he could claim overtime pay for this and she said ‘In your dreams,’ which was a bit predictable, he thought, before planning how to fill out the necessary paperwork while asleep.
He overheard the porters…naw, she’s a Rain Man. So no conversation for the porters like loquacious taxi drivers. What kind of way is that to talk about someone? Bleedin’ troglodytes, porters…only football could interest them…..small of stature and mainly tattooed, but that wasn’t fair, some were kind in their foul-mouthed manner, maybe less scary than smooth-talking and icily polite doctors.
Trying to find a file he thought that maybe they should have a photograph of the patient on the cover like the back cover of a novel. Herein is some of the work of a particular genius, but the novels would nearly all be horror stories, grand guignol, ‘orrible murders..
Passing the time when sorting files by making up bands…lots of James Browns…they don’t feel good.
Ghost shadows on smoky film. The underlit filing room seemed to take on the smoky dimness of the films as if they were leaking. The management didn’t want to spend money on new lights because they knew the whole place was soon to be history..
As he searched for one film or another he thought that, given the city’s ageing population, it is no surprise that many of the names are seen now as old-fashioned. Men seem nearly all James or John; women, Margaret, Jessie, Jeannie. One day the Jades and Ashleys, Deans and Waynes will conjure up the image of aged faces. Others stand out; a Scaramangas One man is named for the battle of Cambrai; or a summer idyll spent there, but no, he was born in 1918.
Names of colours black brown grey white green…no-one called purple or tope or beige. Mr Camel meet Mr. Teal. People called glass wood steel…how come steel and no brass or bronze? No iron? That statue of bronze that came to life…Talos…in the stacks. People as colours and things. A couple of people with the surname Hailstones!)
As he moves among the stacks he thinks of the myriad radio, television, cell phone waves passing through him and the stored images. Perhaps future technology will be able to pick up his image on those films, if any are still to be found.
The youngest girls talk of their nightly boozing. One asks him, during an argument with her friend over who looks the youngest; what age she is. He knows she is twenty-one but thinks she looks twenty-five, the drink already beginning to take its toll, but says fifteen to keep her happy, meanwhile thinking that she has the mind, not the face, of a fifteen- year- old. She says, one day, that she is looking forward to going home to a long bath. He tells her that, given her shape, a wide bath might be better. She just laughs because she knows there isn’t anything wrong with her shape.
At tea breaks, some go out to smoke, some to collect chairs and place them in a corridor with a view of the outside world. To be more exact, it is a view of the Victorian cemetery; the Necropolis, the city of the dead. He thinks that passers-by must think them all fixated with death, but they just want to see some sky. The horizon is heavy with mausoleums.
The swishing noise of the trolleys’ rubber wheels on corridor floors like water rasping past a boat’s prow…the stretched out passenger, often hollow- cheeked, oblivious, seeming closer to death than life, the trolley a boat, the corridor the Styx, the porter Charon. He went home and continued his reading of The Iliad.
He heard someone advise on how to book a patient for an MRI, Magnetic Resonance Imaging. They should ask the patient if he or she had ever worked with metals, usually it was men; men who’d worked in heavy engineering before most of it went west or more accurately, east, the shipyards and foundries, the works producing engines and ships and big stuff for the oil industry. If they’d ever had a bit of metal in the eye they couldn’t get the MRI because the fragment would heat up and blind them. And women were told not to wear make-up because it sometimes had traces of metal in it and it could fry the face aff ye missus.
As the autumn drew on the whole thing became more depressing. He only had one pair of boots and they squeaked horribly. He couldn’t walk down a corridor without people looking up, back, round. Patients waiting to be x-rayed or CT’d watched him pass to the accompaniment of cacophonous squeaks. Maybe, he thought it will take their mind of the procedure and what it might reveal, just for a few seconds. Squeak squeak; one year, squeak, squeak; six months, squeak, squeak; don’t even bother going home. It got to be too much and he changed to a seasonally inappropriate pair of rubber soled trainers. Now he could catch them all unawares.
He managed to keep a check on his boredom. The angry young man had long become an irritated ageing one. One day, though, it was just like old times. He managed to lose it with a woman over the source of the River Tay.
‘Near Balloch? I don’t think so. More likely Loch Tay, don’t you think?’
She knew she was wrong, turned to another worker and started to ask her wasn’t it irritating the way that this one always had to be right?
He couldn’t stand being discussed as if he wasn’t there. And also couldn’t stand people being wrong about the source of rivers. So he told her to shut it and not address him again, nor even mention his name to anyone, to do some work for a change and stop peering round her computer at him like some stupid fat owl. His voice and face went very tight, vision blurred and blood drained from his face. Why do some faces go red with rage and some white?
He didn’t want to rag-doll anyone. In fact, he wasn’t sure what the term meant. ‘It’s when you take the piss out of someone, give them a really hard time, like kicking around an empty track-suit’, he was told.
He rag-dolled the river woman when she wasn’t there. Made jokes that would long survive his presence and be quoted against her. The river woman wasn’t popular. Like when she claimed that she’d been sitting on a beach in Turkey and some young local lads had thought she looked like Princess Di. Like she had actually expected anyone to believe that! Balloch!
As the digitalisation progressed the file-room got ever quieter. The workers themselves seemed to become obsolete, analogue, as anomalous as a ticking clock on a spaceship Some were wiped, left and weren’t replaced.
He felt some regret for the film. He realised one day that they reminded him of the films he had printed from when he worked, years before, in a photographic lab., pictures he printed from large-format glass negatives donated by shipbuilders to the museum of ships…warships on sea-trials swiftly moving down the river dark and dangerous outlined against the snow-covered hills. Images of creaking ribs and plates long rusted to nothing. Others were of the rich interiors of ocean-going liners showing wood-panelled walls, fine carpets, and enormous hothouse plants all to make the ship seem a gentleman’s London club and not a frail ship on a savage sea.
On his last day it rained heavily. As he walked up the corridor which connected the old hospital with the new buildings and which was lined on either side by windows streaming with rain, he held his black, wet, unfurled folding umbrella to one side. He noticed that ahead of him were several people similarly carrying black, wet, unfurled folding umbrellas, a line of them, the short dark umbrellas loosely pendent and dripping onto the corridor floor. It was like a procession of warriors returning from battle, the severed heads of their enemies swinging from one hand.